Tuesday, October 6th 2009… I woke up alone for the seventh day, and my husband has been locked up for over a week. It’s been only one week without Marc at my side, but it’s painful to deal with and I’m told it gets harder as more time goes by.
Since 2005, Marc and I have never apart for more than a few hours. We worked together, lived together, and grew so very close that it’s surreal to be apart.
Everything is harder to do. Getting groceries the other night was difficult; Marc usually got food and I would sometimes go with him, but now I’m on my own. How odd to try and buy food for just one person… and it makes me sad to know that Marc can’t even get fresh fruit or vegetables.
I started doing the laundry that piled up over the last week, and his clothes are still in the hamper. It feels so strange to know he won’t be wearing his shirts, pants, socks and boxers for the next few months or years… Everything will be washed and folded or hung up to wait for his return. It’s unsettling to not know when he will be back. I won’t put away anything of his – his toothbrush, deodorant, shampoo, everything will stay right where they are for when he comes home.
As for work at Cannabis Culture Magazine and “Marc Emery’s Cannabis Culture Headquarters” store, I always found it a bit tough to keep up with everything required, but now I have so much more to do; Marc’s responsibilities and workload have been put on my shoulders, so now I have to learn how to be the manager of the entire company and business.
On top of that enormous new burden business-wise, I am trying to organize and maintain the “FREE MARC EMERY” campaign. Thousands of people are asking me how they can help, and I can only provide a few ways for now (listed at www.NoExtradition.net). Last week, Marc wrote 74 different methods of action, which I will add to (to make it 100) and share on the new website that will soon be launched. The FREE MARC campaign will need to be intense, organized, and effective.
And after all that is done, I have to deal with the intense grief of losing my other half, the sadness of knowing he’s locked into a small, cold, concrete cell 18-24 hours every day with substandard food and health services… sleeping alone and waking up alone, thinking I hear his voice or see him in the store… Visiting him with a glass divider and metal grate between us, unable to hold his hand or kiss him or touch his face… what torture.
Out here, I’m surrounded by supporters and love, constant reminders of what everyone is doing and how much they care, while Marc is trapped with unsavory people in a high-security jail… Really, he’s more alone than I am, and we miss each other terribly. It’s heartbreaking. I don’t know how other people get through imprisonment without the kind of support we’re receiving from around the world… That makes me want to represent those who suffer in silence, nameless and faceless, while loved ones are locked up. I hope I can bring attention to the families of drug war prisoners while Marc draws focus to the tens of thousands of incarcerated people.
Week one is down, and hopefully there are not many more to go… but Marc can’t come home without intense activism from his friends and fans. Please be sure to check www.NoExtradition.net regularly for more ways to help FREE MARC EMERY!